Hallucination Virtual rEALITY

 

首先要恭喜老婆大人拿好证书拉，该办的证和手续都办起来。不然又要被爸妈说磨蹭了。

时间真的过的很快，冬天又快到了，但是天气一拐一拐的还是忽高忽低，周末据说会跌掉零度。

现在的工作环境和氛围已经开始适应了，比起上月死命的工作时间，如今是轻松了很多，不过心事只是越来越多，一定要把东西作好。

工作周而复始，不断地修改推翻思考再修改，阵痛带着快乐，慢慢成长。

 

以后的路还很长，努力往前走，一起往前走。

 

LIFE WIFE SELF TIME GOD

 

虽然有点晚,其实应该是9月22日的.

但是我还是要纪念一下,虽然坦率的不可能怎么爱他,但还是生日快乐(1年1次嘛)

干儿子可以吗?你批准下~

 

生日快乐!

God will show you the way to a certain direction. sometimes the eventuality is pre-unfold. God ordain it to you but you will never know until the upshot finally unveiled. to some extent, i believe the ordained eventualities, especailly in the domain of love and affection. i am inert and fumble and stagger. maybe the aforementioned expression is not right if you review with a grammartical eye. but now i am puzzled, tinged with frustration.
i wanna find way out to reach the answer. From the very beginning, i told myself i will be on this way, to face various crucibles to wade though the seething water. while now, i find myself standstilled with puny confidence, shabby will to doubt whether i could go further. egregious lacking of gumption. just like doney impugned me, if you regard this as puppy love you experienced several years ago, you shall be more patient to make things happen, to let the hands knot to walk slowly but stably. now i was distraught and fidge. i dare if she would lose courage and confidence to go through. she always wants to play better performance while now we met with stumbleing block. i dare we may be apart. i have a shadow that the falling cesspit will greet me the third time. everyone will meet his comeuppance. but this time i wanna make way out. maybe now i shall be more resoluted, strong-minded to lead the way,to steamroll. never waver, full of willingness and courage, through the blockade. more mature to standing here. donkey told me to more be a manto try your best to create the possibility. sure it is decided by 2. but 1 can also have enough stage to play his role. never yielding, never say quit. test is just playing the first the act. you have ask for her hand, now try to clinch tightly and bravely and warmly and tenderly. then win her affection, to forget the past, walk out of the shadow, embrace the future. you shall be on the way. you can make it.
you are so loyal to your feeling and emotion, now you shall have the gumption to be on par with such loyalty and a riot of emotion. move foward!

 

时间一直喜欢嘲弄我，嘲弄着我最初的想法。很坚定的去决定什么，去履行什么。

但最后发觉时间的流逝改变了许多的事情。

而我，始终是一个有梦想但从来不会100%投入去做的人，什么都是半吊子。

 

就象2004年现实无情的抛弃我，或者是我自己抛弃了自己一样。

2008年，又有了轮回。

真的是无话可说的现实。

 

也许是我变了，也许是裂痕随着时间的磨蚀变的无法修补，彼此的感觉总是陌生而遥远。

我原来以为自己可以去改变，以前的时间真的过的很美好。但现在的理智告诉我，很多事情就这样到头了。

但我是个感性的人，我真的不想看到自己又一次的对自己无情的嘲笑。

 

浑浑噩噩的半个月，期间还做错了一件事。

 

到终点的时候，很平静的交谈，仍然感觉很亲切，但感觉无法再是恋人的感应。

我一直想到的就是平淡，但为什么这样的状态会让自己觉得想要冲破

往前走的理由是什么，难道只是为了往前走。理性告诉我往前走。。

 

前几天甜和我聊了很久，同样觉得感慨，就是因为你，让我以后可以在关键时刻勇敢的去做一些事情，不去错过什么。你现在也过的很好，我很开心。

不知道6月一别，要多少年后才会遇见，或者说以后不会再见面。

 

也许是我太感性，我希望大家都可以幸福。我对自己的幸福很释怀，我无所谓的其实。

 

一些人和事，让我很开心，让我很怀念。真的很感谢。

一些人和事，概要的将过去的5年划了休止符。

 

我是个感性的人，我一定会怀念。不知道这样的习惯是好是坏。

 

还是往前走吧。

不知道以后会怎么样，只是我会去尽力去做些什么。

回头真的很留恋，但还是要走下去，真诚的对待别人，不辜负别人，不辜负自己。

 

最近的脑子很乱，一天没有睡几个钟头，很乏力。

上海火炬跑很乱，周迅人很自然率真象个孩子有时候，和他们在一起两天，但毫无拍照签名的欲望。

 

PS：

你一定会被爱

不要太任性的活下去

不要挥霍别人的爱

我不会嘲笑你，没有人会嘲笑